I am getting terrible at posting. I have so many things that I want to write about, but every time I sit down to try and say what I want to, it comes out all wrong. It's so much easier to talk about them to another person. (Maybe I should get a camera and start a vlog. . ?)
Anyway, since I've written last, we've discovered that our little baby is, in fact, a little man. . . well, boy. All my thoughts about having a girl were flushed down the toilet and I had to come up with all new thoughts and ideas. My mind is so up and down sometimes though, it wasn't hard to change everything from pink (or purple in my case, since pink isn't my forte) to blue. I'll probably be better with a boy anyway. I haven't been around too many baby girls, so maybe having a boy is more of a blessing than just a different gender. Plus, Jeremiah and I didn't have to fight over names with a boy (because I was NOT going to name my child Chloe, and he refused to accept Felicity. Men.)
Asher Hanely is the name we decided on. Asher is from the Bible, but one of the rare amazing Bible names that no one ever uses, and it means happy and blessed. Hanley means. . . Something about a hill. . . The middle name wasn't as important in meaning to me. I just think it's unique. The important thing is that Jeremiah and I both love it. I didn't think Jeremiah liked it at first, but when he started naming all his video game characters Asher and started referring to my belly as Asher, I realized that he liked it a lot more than he was letting on.
So, even though I'm officially 4 months, 2 weeks, and 1 day along today, I'm barely showing. I mean, for those who've known me for a long time and know I'm pregnant, they can tell, but if you're not really paying attention, I look like I almost have a flat stomach. I was really worried about this; thinking that I should probably be showing a lot more than I am; till I talked to my lovely friend Nicole, who just had a baby last year. She carried really small and when I told her about me, she asked if I was having lower back pain. I have some random back pain, and it's all Asher's fault. He's a major spine snuggler. I've felt him move quite a bit over the past couple of days, which has been amazing, don't get me wrong. . . But it's always accompanied by the slight ache in my back.
I could have some major complaints about it, but I just keep thinking, pretty soon he'll be some grown boy and won't want to snuggle with me anymore (Yeah, it's in the far future, but it'll come faster than I think.) Therefore, I'm going to enjoy this closeness while I can. I have plenty of other things to complain about that go along with me being pregnant. . . Like my pandemic worthy breakout of eczema or the fact that I had to cut off my constant coffee drinking. I think for now though, I'm going to be happy with the snuggling.
